A long weekend stretches before us, with boats and lakehouses and pool parties looming like the Texas sun—that is, coming in hot and slightly terrifying with its intensity.
I was so excited.
But today is just not a good day. Nali isn’t doing well. I’m not doing well. I spent the morning cleaning up poop all over the house, and then went to yoga, which is meant to help that mental health, and kicked over and broke my water bottle, so I had to clean up glass. A day meant to be an easy, breezy kick off to summer is shaping up to be … well, shitty.
But like all things, it’s gotten easier as I allowed myself all the feelings, and tried to sit with them while also working through them. So back to excited about the weekend we go!
This week, though I just wrote four days ago, was one I’m grateful for: a good work schedule, frustrating situations that I resolved (I almost wrote resolved themselves but that for sure isn’t true: I am learning that for me to resolve something I need to say what’s true and let it go EVEN AT WORK and it’s working and resolving, if not always how I hoped), TOP GUN MAVERICK which I saw with my dad and it was so so so good and I loved it and want to see it again! I ran 1.5 miles at 80% bodyweight on the alter-g, I did my cryo and workouts and five consecutive days of hot girl/rich mom walks though they got shorter each day. And Nali zoomed and I posted it and everyone loved it. Because she’s not long for this world, and while she is, I want to celebrate her as much as I can.